Get back on that bike

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It's not whether you get knocked down. It's whether you get up again.
Vince Lombardi

Bad weekend, in the past - move on! Under 1700 calories today, no exercise, but that's ok.

Believe and Achieve

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People become really quite remarkable when they start thinking that they can do things. When they believe in themselves they have the first secret of success.
Norman Vincent Peale

I KNOW I can do this..... I just wish it wasn't taking so long! :)


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If you have a goal in life that takes a lot of energy, that requires a lot of work, that incurs a great deal of interest and that is a challenge to you, you will always look forward to waking up to see what the new day brings.
Susan Polis Schultz

In the Zone

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Haven't blogged for the while - been busy exercising! LOL Not having huge results on the scales which is a bit disappointing. However, I keep telling myself that its not just about numbers on the scales!

Have really amped up the exercise regime, so much so I am sore constantly. There is never a day when I'm NOT sore! But it's good sore, I guess.

My knees are coping, I feel invigorated.

Lost another 500gms this week, I'm aligning all my weighins to one day (except Wed when my PT pops me on the scales).

Downward....downward....slow and steady wins the race!!!

I've done pretty much nothing all weekend :)

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I looked at the kitchen and ignored it, I washed clothes, only because I need them for work tomorrow. I've done no housework all weekend.

Saturday I fiddled on computer, went grocery shopping, went to an OA meeting, went for a walk, watched Son's footy game, came home cooked dinner, watched a movie and went to bed.

Sunday, I slept in, fiddled on computer, went for a swim, got ready and went to the beach for the day, came home cooked dinner and watched DVD's.

Now I'm on here...

Early start tomorrow, 'cause dragonboating tomorrow night. Have to make my salad and pack my bag, so I don't have to do it in the morning. Then I can have an extra half hour in bed!

Someone else can do the kitchen... bugger it!

Sat 28 Feb 09

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Life's up and downs provide windows of opportunity to determine your values and goals.

Think of using all obstacles as stepping stones to build the life you want.

Marsha Sinetar

If I was to be beaten down by all the "downs" in my life, I would not be here today. All the ups and downs have made me who I am and for that I am grateful. My life is a constant roller coaster ride - its been fun at times and at others downright terrifying!

Life throws us some wobblies at times, the trick is to not let it beat you.

Get back up, brush yourself off, make a list, cross things off and get on with it!

I had a truly "spiritual" experience in OA this afternoon, there was truly a higher power at work in that room with us....

I am strong... I am smart... I am fit... I am healthy.


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I arrived at the address where someone had requested a taxi. I honked but no one came out. I honked again, nothing.. So I walked to the door and knocked... 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.
After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie.

By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets.

There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.

'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, and then returned to assist the woman.

She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.

She kept thanking me for my kindness. 'It's nothing', I told her. 'I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated'..
'Oh, you're such a good boy', she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, and then asked, 'Could you drive through downtown?'

'It's not the shortest way,' I answered quickly.
'Oh, I don't mind,' she said. 'I'm in no hurry... I'm on my way to a hospice'.

I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. 'I don't have any family left,' she continued. 'The doctor says I don't have very long.' I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.

'What route would you like me to take?' I asked.

For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.

We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.

Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing..

As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, 'I'm tired... Let's go now'

We drove in silence to the address she had given me.. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.

Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.

I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.

'How much do I owe you?' she asked, reaching into her purse.
'Nothing,' I said

'You have to make a living,' she answered.

'There are other passengers,' I responded.

Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.

'You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,' she said.

'Thank you.'

I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life.

I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?

What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.

We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.

But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.


Lost my way for a little bit

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Been working from home for the last couple of weeks and boy am I off track! Eating is/was totally out of control. No exercise.

Completely out of whack with life in general at the moment. Eating my feelings/stress.

Had a conversation with my Sister today, she read my CK blog and was concerned about me.

Read some of my OA literature, prayed for strength and abstinence today... one day at a time.

Feeling stronger today, looking forward to getting back into my routine on Monday morning again.

Heading to Dragonboating tomorrow morning, getting to a Body Balance class tonight.

No night-time bingeing....

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Well my night - time bingeing seems to be under control for the moment, I nearly came out to the kitchen last night and ho-ed into the cheese, but controlled myself.

Day-time bingeing on the other had is a whole other story. Food is just too handy, and I'm not talking about naughty stuff either, it's just normal stuff. I just eat too much. Why can't I just be normal and eat 3 meals a day and some fruit and a cuppa in between???

Plus I've been quite lethargic 'cause of the weather.

Put on .3 this week. Poop!

Oh well, sh*t happens.


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Well I have an inspection on Wednesday of next week, so it's all hands on deck spring cleaning the house. It's a new Real Estate, as the other one sold out. I'm a bit nervous, 'cause you don't know what sort of standards they have. If I were taking over a new property portfolio, I would do my research and look back over the records. They would see that we are excellent tenants, that we have never been late with our rent, that the house and yard is well kept and looked after like it were my own.

The owners came and did an inspection end of last year and were over the moon with the way we have looked after the house for them. She even commented that it is similarly decorated to the way they had it!

However, I still panic around inspection time and have to make sure everything is sparkling clean.

On the bright side, it's always a good excuse for a great spring clean, so the house gets a thorough going over every 3 months.

Cause its been raining so much, the gardens and lawns have gone crazy and the pool is looking a bit murky.

Our house is our home, I am an old fashioned girl with lots of pictures on the wall, an old genoa lounge with tapestry pattern, tapestries on the walls, ornaments etc etc. The kids reckon it's an "old" person's house! LOL I can't help it, I was brought up by grandparents!

I like the "cottage" look. Some would say it is cluttered... but each to their own. My home is very "homely" and "welcoming".

I'm also a bit of a hippy chick from the 70's :) So I like incense, feng shue, candles. I guess you could call me ecclectic :)

Anyhoo, best get back to it. Just finished the sky lights and light fittings, have to get stuck into the fans and walls now. The house is gonna look beautiful when I'm finished!!!!

Anyone wanna come round for coffee???? LOL

Luv Gwennie :)

No bingeing last night....yeeeaahhhhh

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Woke up around 1.30pm went to loo, turned right back around and went to bed again! No shuffling in a dopey haze to the kitchen to grab handsful of grated cheese!

One day down.... the rest of my life to go.....

Good gym session last night. Lost weight since last Tues, bit over a kilo. Saturday is my own personal weigh in day though, so time will tell...

Feeling a bit sore in my shoulders, cause we do lots of upper body work in my PT session. PT says my pushups are getting much stronger, we do them on the diagonal now. Started on the wall, have progressed to half way down using an exercise machine for support, then we'll progress to the floor!

Combat tonight, I do love Combat so. It's a great class with an excellent instructor she really gets you pumping! She is really tall, really energetic and really strong. She is my goal..... a beautiful big strong amazon of a woman and fit as hell! That will be me in a couple of more years!

I've been giving some thought to my future and what I would ultimately like to do. I was thinking what a wonderful motivator I could be to other big women. Women who struggle through life like me. I know what's going on in their mind, I know how hard it is to stay motivated under duress, I know how hard it is to keep pushing through when you're in pain, I know how embarrassing it can be exercising, sweating, smelling...... and just "living" in the real world when you are overweight.

"Food" for thought :) pardon the pun :)

Dragon Boating

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Had my first go at Dragon boating tonight, I am absolutely hooked! I have found my Team sports, I love it!

I feel stronger already and I don't have to use my legs at all!

I love it, I love it, I love it!!!!!!!!

A dragon boat or "dragonboat" is a very long and narrow human-powered boat now used in the team paddling sport of dragon boat racing which originated in China over 2000 years ago. While competition has taken place annually for more than 20 centuries as part of folk ritual, it emerged in modern times as an international "sport" in Hong Kong in 1976. Like running, horse racing and marksmanship, the racing of dragon boats is among mankind's oldest organized competitions.

For competition events, dragon boats are generally rigged with decorative Chinese dragon heads and tails. At other times the decorative regalia is usually removed, although the drum often remains aboard for training purposes. In some areas of China, the boats are raced without dragon adornments.

Dragon boat races are traditionally held as part of the annual Duanwu Jie festival observance in China. 19th century European observers of the racing ritual, not understanding the significance of Duan Wu, referred to the spectacle as a "dragon boat festival" (literally, "long zhou jie" which is not the expression used in China to refer to this activity.) So this is the term that has become known in the west, even though it is not very authentic.

Dragonboat festival racing, like Duan Wu, is observed and celebrated in many areas of east Asia with significant populations of ethnic Chinese living there e.g. Singapore, Malaysia, Greater China (Hongkong, Macau, Taiwan, the mainland provinces of China). The date is referred to as the "double fifth" since Duan Wu is reckoned as the fifth day of the fifth lunar month, which often falls on the Gregorian calendar month of June, but also rarely May or July. This is because Duan Wu is reckoned annually in accordance with the traditional calendar system of China, which is a combination of solar and lunar cycles, unlike the Gregorian calendar system.

In December 2007, the Chinese government added Duan Wu, Qing Ming and Mid-Autumn festivals to the schedule of national holidays observed in the People's Republic of China, such is the importance of dragonboating to the Chinese today.

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Taking a leaf out of Jigsaw's Blog and following a discussion with my Sister yesterday, I need to re-visit my goals from one year ago when I started my journey. I also need to compare where I've come from to where I am now. So here goes:

Changes in me from Jan 2008 - Jan 2009
From 142.5kgs to 115kgs
From Size 26+ to Size 20-
Took 20 mins to train station now 10 mins to train station
Struggled with 1 min on Elliptical now 20 mins on Elliptical
Couldn't do a squat to save myself, now range of motion enormously improved
Couldn't run, now can run short distances
Short 30 - 60 min walks with difficulty, now walked 10klm Moonwalk and Cancer Council 8 klm Walk with ease
Struggled getting out of chairs, including lounge and office, now get out with ease
Could NOT get out of the pool by myself, had to climb out and roll out like a beached whale, now step out with ease!
Used to have frequent bouts of depression, now very rarely will things get me down
Used to get sick all the time, now body fights off bugs really quickly if I get sick at all
Busting out of Shoe Size 11, now feet have shrunk and I can fit comfortably into a Size 10
Could wear high heels to save myself, now I have four pairs and feel sexy when I wear them
Wouldn't wear sleeveless shirts to save myself, now proud of showing off my muscly shoulders and arms
I was taking medication for thyroid, arthritis and reflux, now I don't need reflux medication and I only take anti-inflammatory meds every second or third day
I was taking pain meds daily, some heavies at night time, now don't need them very often at all, only after a really heavy exercise session
I used to sweat at the slightest exertion, now I still sweat, but not half as bad and I recover really quickly.
I was slow, sluggish and lethargic, heat really knocked me around and I was tired all the time, now I have energy to burn!!!

MY GOALS Feb 2008: I want to be able to get out of a chair or off the floor without groaning and being in enormous pain, (achieved) I want to be able to sit on a train or a bus without panicking in case anyone tries to sit next to me because I am taking up one and a half people's seats (achieved), I want to be able to run up a flight of stairs so I don't miss a train (achieved)! I want to be able to take two steps at a time when running up a flight of stairs (partially achieved), I want to be able to wear highheels without it absolutely killing me (achieved) and I want to go to a themepark and go on all the rides (not yet). I want to set a good example for my family (working on it, seems to be working!!!!). I want to go back to places I have lived previously and visit friends and relatives a whole new me and ASTOUND everyone!!! (visited Canberra last year, impressed a few people, went to a Xmas Party this year, people couldn't believe the change in me)

Mar 08: I thought of some more reasons to be a "normal" weight/size: I want to be able to get on a plane and put the food tray all the way down; I want to be able to go to the beach or pool in bathers in public and not be embarrassed; I want to be able to get out of a chair without being in enormous amounts of pain; I want to be able to get out of a chair just using my legs; I want to be able to get into a crowded elevator without thinking I am too heavy and it will set off an over capacity alarm.
MY GOALS Feb 2009 - Dec 2009: Take up Dragon boating. Lose the same amount of weight as 2008. Get down to a Size 16. Feel more comfortable in public transport, go to theme park. I want to be able to walk into a normal dress shop and buy clothes off the rack.

Terrible nightmare

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The weirdest thing happened last night/this morning. I was dreaming about my old cat Taffy. We had him for 21 years and he was with us when the kids were growing up, he was part of our family. Sadly he passed away around 3 years ago now.

Lately, both husband and I have been calling our other cat "Taffy", who we have had for about 9-10 years!!! Her name is Freckles.

It was a terrible dream, about Taffy dying. I woke up physically crying, tears were streaming down my face, I has wrenching with sorrow. In the dream, I was holding him in his last death thrashes and it felt so real, it was really awful.

The circumstance of his "real" death was pretty awful too. We lived in a rural area at the time and our phones were out, they were always out as the lines were old and Telstra was always having to come and fix them!

My youngest daughter was the first home and found him dying. Don't know how long he had been lying there on the cold tile floor in Canberra, poor thing. She couldn't ring anyone, all she could do was sit with him and wait for someone to come home. She was too scared to touch him, she was only 13 at the time. It was very traumatic for her. I suspect this could have been a trigger for her "depression".

She cites that it was like he was waiting for someone from the family to get home before he died. He was closest to me, but I guess he thought daughter would do. She said at the last, he looked up at her and she felt like he "knew".

Husband was the next one home, sadly he had passed away by the time he got home. Daughter was beside herself and inconsolable, together they decided to bury him before I got home as I was the closest to him and they thought I would be too distressed to see him.

I never got to say good bye.

I don't know what triggered this nightmare this morning, but it was so incredibly real and I feel a bit "weird" this morning.

Why should I dream about him dying after all these years?

Food for thought....

More self discovery

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Well I went of the rails last night. I have been following the Blood Type eating plan now from before Xmas ie no wheat, no dairy, no coffee and various other things not recommended for my blood type (O).

So I felt like "busting out" last night. I had a massive craving for icecream and pasta. So I had a big bowl of spaghetti bolognaise and some icecream for dessert, I also had a glass of red wine (after telling myself I wasn't going to drink alcohol again until June).

I also had a craving for a skinny latte for brekkie.

Well, am I paying for it today! I feel AWFUL! I feel all stodgy, bloated, depressed, sluggish...overall just BLAH.

My stomach feels and looks like I'm about to give birth!

We live and learn, I know in my heart that when I eat fresh foods and stay way from wheat, dairy and coffee, I feel so much better! I have more energy and I feel good about myself.

Blow out over..... will probably have another before long. But for now, I've learnt my lesson.

Heading off for a swim now. Its so damn HUMID! I can't stop sweating, it's gross - I feel gross.

Hopefully a good swim for half an hour will brighten me up a bit and loosen my tummy up a bit!

As I said.... we live and learn.

Bloody Hot

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It is so hot here in Brissie today, it is incredibly muggy and the temp is high, or feels like it! I have done nothing but sweat pretty much all day. We went shopping today and dreaded getting out of the air conditioned car into the air conditioned shop! We had to get some stuff from the Warehouse and they don't have air conditioning - it was horrendous!

There were lots of cranky people in the shops today too.

It's so funny (well not funny haha) but I heard alot of Mothers screaming at their kids and speaking to them terribly and I thought to myself, I wonder if I did that when I was stessed, hot and bothered? I probably did. It is so embarrassing to hear, but most Mothers have probably done it at one time or another when they've lost their patience with their kids.

But the way these Mothers were speaking to their kids was terrible, it was just "nasty", it made me feel sad. How much damage do we do to our kids when we speak to them this way? What sort of an example are we setting for them? They in turn probably treat others the same way, including their siblings?

We, as parents, have alot to answer for.

My kids are all grown up now and they love me and their Father, they tell me often enough and we love them with all our hearts. One day I felt the need to sit them all down and apologise to them for the times I may have treated them badly when they were little. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't an abuser or anything, I probably just lost my patience with them, I smacked them when I was angry, I yelled at them. I probably said things that I didn't mean at times when I was hormonal, hot, tired, anxious...human things, human feelings...

You can't go back, you can only make amends and go forward.

Crook, tired and stressed

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Just after lunch yesterday (Wed) I started feeling quite ill. All headachey, like I could just put my head down on my desk and fall asleep right then and there, throat a bit swollen and sore. Came home early and went to bed pretty much straight away, slept until 7.30ish when the girls called me for dinner. I didn't want to get up, but had to of course. The girls reckoned if I didn't get up now, I would wake up in the early hours and not be able to go back to sleep......WRONG!

I should have listened to my body, I couldn't get back to sleep no matter what I did, the clock ticked away and the last time I glanced at it I think it was somewhere around 3.30am!!!

I got up a few times, had some cheese, 'cause I read somewhere that it's got some tripto something or other that helps you sleep - another excuse for a binge - but it either did the trick, or my body just exhausted itself! I slept in this morning and came into work late - I am so grateful for such a wonderful team and boss, they're so understanding!

Plus, had two meetings I had to attend this afternoon.

I'm so stressed at work at the moment. So much to do, two major projects with very tight deadlines along with the usual day to day helpdesk and policy stuff. I'm feeling quite overwhelmed, I can't help thinking if this myserious illness is stress related.

One of the projects, of which I am in charge of, I am absolutely PANICKING about. I just don't know what I am doing and everyone has all this faith in me and thinks I know what I should be doing. I don't want to let anyone down, my boss, my team, my reputation, myself. It's really getting to me.

All this damn politics drives me NUTS!

Oh well, that's my vent for the day. No exercise, ate "ok" so far.... but as we all know....anything can happen in the wee small hours.....

Nothing much to report...a good day

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Ate very healthily, no binges today, very nutritious food. Prob ate a little more than I had initially planned. However, did a Pump class tonight so needed the extra energy.

Had leftover salad for lunch today and it had corn and alfalfa in it, one of the no no foods on the Blood Type eating plan and I am suffering a bit tonight as a result!

It is quite amazing, my body knows when it's had something it shouldn't and it complains - loudly!!!

A bit tired tonight, might have an early one - it's 5 to 10 that's pretty darn early for me on a weeknight!

I will pray for abstinence again tomorrow. For today: its been a good day.

Sunday at the Coast

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Spent the day at Noosaville visiting friends from Canberra. We had a lovely day. Caught the bus from their Unit to the beach. We were going to go swimming. However, it's been a pretty lousy day today and started raining.

So, we decided to just go have lunch at the Lifesaving Club and we spent hours there, just sitting, talking, laughing, watching the water and drinking.

Calories blown again today with evil alcohol!!! But it was a nice day.

Monday tomorrow....back on track. Yeaahhh....pump!!!

I really need to stop drinking, if I did that I think I would lose weight alot faster.

I've given up so many other things, I am hesitant to give this up though. But it is a calorie killer!

Because I've given up so much already, it shouldn't be too much trouble, I should just do it. Even if just for 6 months or so to give my weightloss a better chance.


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I gained weight again this week. If I'm absolutely honest with myself, even though I ate heathily, I most probably ate too much.

I thought getting back into my crazy exercise regime would help. I just don't understand my body. It isn't consistent.

All I can do is just keep plodding along. I want to be slim, but at the end of the day as long as I am healthy and look ok, I guess I should be happy.

It messed with my mind a bit this morning, but I'm ok now. I've got to stop analysing everything and just take one day at a time, like my support group tells me.

I won't get any exercise today and probably tomorrow either.

Heading up the Coast to visit some friends from Canberra, will be "active" but there will be no planned or dedicated exercise.

Back to the grind.....

I hope everyone likes my new backgrounds, my beautiful daughter did it all for me.

I love this background! Usually my favourite colour is purple, but I couldn't resist this one. And..... it has purple in it :)

My friend Gym

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Well so far Pump on Monday, Pilates on Tuesday, Personal Training on Wednesday.

Plan to do Combat tomorrow and Boxing Friday.

Had a session with the Slim Coach today, we talked about my diet and eating habits. She told me that I am doing everything right. 95% of the time I am, its my binge sessions that let me down, but I'm working on them.

I went to my support group on Tuesday and it was truly moving, we read a passage entitled "keep it in the family" and it talked about a woman and her fat family, her self diet sabotage, feeling uncomfortable and not coming to terms with losing weight. There was a girl there that was slim and beautiful and she had a huge issue with her body image.

A few of us talked about our self sabotage and our feelings around this.

One of the themes that kept coming up was "willingness". I need to be willing to succeed for me to succeed. I am willing, I know I am. This is a very different time for me now.... I know that it may take me a couple of years, but I have come to terms with that now. I know there is no quick fix.

Feeling good at the moment, feeling fairly in control....very sore from my exercise regime....but it's good pain :)

Hi ho, hi ho, it's back to work I go....

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Half of me is looking forward to getting back into my usual routine, but half of me wants to stay home.

I know I can't keep myself under control when I'm home, so it is good that I am back to work tomorrow.

Going to enter into the New Year gym comp. Last year was War on Waistlines (WOW), this year is called something different, but the same idea.

Will do me good to focus 100% on food and exercise again, before my holidays to too much damage!!!

Back to pain, but it is unavoidable.

I can feel myself getting weak in the muscles after only a couple of weeks - ridiculous!

How easily we lose our condition!

Back on track, back to living life, another year to make a bunch of new changes.

Gained Weight

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A bit down on myself today, Saturday is my weekly weigh in day and I've gained 1.4 this week. Bit of a pain but I know I haven't been diligent with my food, plus I haven't done anywhere near enough exercise this week.

The only reason I am looking forward to going back to work on Monday is to get back into my routine.

Monday I plan on doing a Pump class followed by a Yoga class, plus I hope to get some walking in as well.

It has been too hot to walk at lunch time, I get too hot and sweaty and its too much of a pain to have to shower before going back to work. We do have showers and change rooms at work, but then I would have to take toiletries. I know it sounds like I'm whingeing, but it's just too much effort, I would rather try and fit other exercise in throughout the day instead.

I did enjoy my daily walk when it was cooler, just have to make some adjustments during Summer, that's all.

Something's not quite right

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I feel a bit "off" today, its a lousy day. Overcast, miserable. My mood is so affected by the weather! I only have a few days of holidays left, so feeling anxious about going back to work. House is a mess and need to do a million things, need to take the xmas decorations down, need to sort out the girls rooms, need to do the washing. Feel a little overwhelmed.

Husband is getting on my nerves. He sleeps or he watches TV and its driving me NUTS! I know he can't do much, because of his knees.

But when you see people like LoseToLive who can't walk, actually doing something like boxing. It makes me mad at him. He's just given up, I know he's in pain, I know it hurts to do stuff. But he doesn't even try! I'm so angry at him for giving up. He has no quality of life at all, I can't just do that, I can't just give up...I have too much left to do in my life. We were suppose to do it together.

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Took myself and the kids off to Alma Park Zoo today. Walked for four and a half hours! Plus did a 40 minute swim this morning.

The only food they had at the cafe was things like hamburgers, chips and sandwiches. Given that I'm not eating bread anymore....well I asked for a chicken burger without the bun and got a plate full of chicken and salad, it was very nice and sustained me for the day. Plus for a snack I had a Watermelon and Pineapple Frosty Fruit made with real juice, it was so yummo!

Plus I picked up fish and chips for the family for dinner, I got a grilled fish fillet and came home and had it with a nice large salad.

Had a wonderful day, feel like I've eaten healthily and exercised sufficiently.

Oh and.... had my pic taken with the snake again, 12 months on in the same shirt and I can really see the difference particularly in my face - different snake though. I'll try and scan and upload for a comparison for before and after...

For today: I feel very proud of my achievements so far.

My very first Blog! How exciting....

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I started making this Blog ages ago, but never really did anything with it. It was only through one of my friends that also has a blog, that I needed to fix up my account so I could respond to her and it all went from there!

I don't get alot of time on the computer and barely keep up with my daily food and exercise diary and blog on my Calorie King (CK) site. But I thought, what the hey, may as well have a go!

I've found that there are alot of my friends from CK using this Blog, so maybe this is another avenue to catch up, talk about what's going on in our lives and how our weightloss, fitness and health is travelling.

We're all in this together.....